Month: May 2003

  • I love storms! None of this pansy ass drizzly shit, this one came rolling across JP pond all black and looming, and the air turned heavy and crackly and green...then kaplunk, plop, plunk, plop plop, KA BOOM! and downpour! Yess!!! Lightning scathed across the sky, (i thought about superheated air molecules and the sonic boom of expanding gases) and the heavens crashed and fumed with thunder.


    When i was a kid i remember storms in Wyoming. We had just tumbled out of a mountain pass and into this wide and yawning valley, where something dark and meteorological was brewing....at first the clouds were eye level from our mountain perch, and then came seething alongside of us upon the horizon as we slipped lower. From faraway, it looked like a film of curtains skimming the flat of the land, dousing the earth with their fringes. I miss those storms.....


    I leaned out from under my umbrella to hang my hand in the open wet, measuring the weight of the raindrops. I looked up at the bottom of a steel painted cloud, and the water ran up my sleeve.... it felt warm and wet and fresh and alive, and i remembered that the earth is always moving, and the rain is always moving, and i am in motion too.

  • I am a BUM.


    Instead of going to Tai Chi, i am going to:



    and watch some:



    (LA la lalala, la LA lalala, la la lalala! woohoo!)


    And eat samosas and naan from:



     


    How's that schiznit for inner peace? ommm.....

  • I am at school hiding out in the cheeso 'puter lizab. I have a tummyache and my ears feel really warm and i'm the only art teacher around today. Which can be good, because the other teacher is a ditz, but now i don't have anyone to talk to. And  I woke up feeling lonely today, pooh.


    I don't know what to think about the weekend yet. I've been sort of hermity. Sunday was a bust until 7, when my two darlings dragged me to a dinner thing, and i got to wear my orange bikini and sit in a hot tub. Mostly I got bubbles up my bottoms and spaced out over the blue light and the froth, but i did get to eat alot and hang out with people i don't see so much anymore, so it was pleasant. I also got some bad news so i think I'm going to go down the cape next weekend, see my family, and maybe sleep in my big bed in Orleans. I feel homesick. I miss the beach. And then yesterday i was inundated with Kerri's crazy family, which was cool. I got to be Auntie Kerri's crazy friend, and had kiddoes climbing all over me. And i ate some cupcakes. Maybe that's why my tummy hurts. Blargh.


    Ok, enough poopiness.....more art! I think I am going to rearrange the art room this afternoon while noone is looking. And then I'll chill out at Tai chi, take myself out for supper, get my purple sneakers sorted out in Brookline, and everything will be better.

  • oyasumi = goodnight, in japanese.


    "oyasumi, y'all."

  • Seems we need a little hope today......


    "Rainbow Connection"

    Why are there so many songs about rainbows
    What's on the other side?
    Rainbows are visions, but only illusions
    And rainbows have nothing to hide

    So we've been told and some choose to believe it
    I know they're wrong, wait and see

    Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection
    The lovers, the dreamers, and me

    Who said that every wish would be heard and answered
    When wished on the morning star?
    Somebody thought of that and someone believed it
    Look what it's done so far

    What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing
    What do we think we might see?

    All of us under its spell
    We know that it's probably magic

    Have you been half-asleep and have you heard voices?
    I've heard them calling my name
    Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors?
    It may be one and the same

    I've heard it too many times to ignore it
    It's something that I'm supposed to be

  • okay, the agenda is not working AT ALL.


    My brilliant conversation with josh:


    isww79: smelly!
    Annie Wylde: you are!
    isww79: not as bad as you
    Annie Wylde: you're a jerk
    Annie Wylde: and a snob
    isww79: not as much as you
    Annie Wylde: what?
    Annie Wylde: that makes no sense
    isww79: i don't know
    Annie Wylde: doofus
    isww79: poop
    isww79: y
    Annie Wylde: cat licker
    isww79: bug eater
    Annie Wylde: *crunch crunch crunch*
    isww79: you love it
    Annie Wylde: ya, *crunch*, so??
    isww79: smelly bug eater
    isww79: bye
    Annie Wylde: snotty cat licker
    Annie Wylde: bye

  • Agenda for today (um, what day is it?):



    • Less Angst, more cleanliness! Evidence of dire necessity:



    • Car Shopping with Kerri...mmm, jeeps.



    • Get real food for my tummy (because Swedish Fish ain't cutting it)



    • Think about the money situation.


     



    • Call my mummy and daddy.



    • Stare at this thing which showed up on the livingroom wall. It is too cool for me....i might have to move.

  • Ugh, I feel so sad right now. I need a cookie.

  • Doggie!


    I have a whole lot on my mind today, but let me begin with a happy picture of Alexa's new doggie. To think, the same strange girl I've known since we were 12 now has a boyfriend, a house, and a dog, and seems blissful and quite content.


    ....Auuugh! I'm getting old! I don't wanna grow up!



    But i want a dog!





     

    Ohh, the tangled webs we weave.....

     

    Last night at Pho we discussed possibilities....teaching in Japan, art history, motorcycles, the paint on the walls. Agency and Prophecy leads us along the lines and patterns of our history, and turns us out into the channels of our future.....we choose, and we are carried along with the flow that started when we were kids. He was a troublemaker and a smarty pants, and i drew pictures and listened to everything. We're still like this, adventurous and pondering, even over noodles and anime. For now, we conspire together....

     

    ...or separately.

     

    Because Drew is coming...or is he? In the rain in Harvard I tempted myself with daydreams, wondering if the possibility was even real that he will fly here. I can almost see how it will be when he's standing in the terminal at the airport, smiling and a little jet lagged and loving; the moment i take a step towards him will mark all that i leave behind me. Our paths cross, Prophecy kicks my ass, and Agency demands that i make some sort of choice.

     

     

  • I would just like to take a moment to tell everyone that I am madly in love with Drew........counting the days..... *Sigh.*