May 24, 2003
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Doggie!
I have a whole lot on my mind today, but let me begin with a happy picture of Alexa’s new doggie. To think, the same strange girl I’ve known since we were 12 now has a boyfriend, a house, and a dog, and seems blissful and quite content.
….Auuugh! I’m getting old! I don’t wanna grow up!
But i want a dog!
Ohh, the tangled webs we weave…..
Last night at Pho we discussed possibilities….teaching in Japan, art history, motorcycles, the paint on the walls. Agency and Prophecy leads us along the lines and patterns of our history, and turns us out into the channels of our future…..we choose, and we are carried along with the flow that started when we were kids. He was a troublemaker and a smarty pants, and i drew pictures and listened to everything. We’re still like this, adventurous and pondering, even over noodles and anime. For now, we conspire together….
…or separately.
Because Drew is coming…or is he? In the rain in Harvard I tempted myself with daydreams, wondering if the possibility was even real that he will fly here. I can almost see how it will be when he’s standing in the terminal at the airport, smiling and a little jet lagged and loving; the moment i take a step towards him will mark all that i leave behind me. Our paths cross, Prophecy kicks my ass, and Agency demands that i make some sort of choice.
