August 22, 2007

• The past week and a half has seriously sucked, if you couldn’t already guess from the tone of my last post. But I’m better now, and like many things which seriously suck, some good did come out of it.

  I was stuck on the couch feeling extremely unwell, basically. Without getting into the gritty details, throughout my twenties I’ve been plagued with acutely painful cysts in my reproductive system, and a week ago yesterday I could sense the beginnings of one about to rear its demonic head. Various doctors have attempted various treatments to make this better for me, to the point where it comes down to either dosing me with artificial hormones, or, alternately sending me in for surgery. The surgery might be okay, if i liked doctors. I hate the hormone idea.

  Basically, I’ve become adept at riding out the pain, drinking lots of water to rinse out the toxins in my system, taking it easy, indulging in lots of  nice hot compresses and baths, avoiding caffeine, and in general eating lots of foods with antioxidants as a preventative. Aside from a few days of absolute misery once or twice a year, this more homeopathic method works pretty well.  By yesterday evening, I felt considerably better.

  Matt took really good care of me while i was down and out, and i love him for being so patient
  since i wasn’t exactly a peach to be around. i was feeling restless and
  bored and horrible, because there’s nothing worse than really wanting
  to get up and do things, but finding yourself incapable. He kept me
  distracted, and fed, and petted me when i was sad, took care of the
  rabbit, and did all the chores. His cooking has been getting
  progressively more interesting, since there’s about five things he
  knows how to make, and only three of them were in the freezer. I’m not
  complaining, it was just amusing. Last night he made ravioli with
  marinara, kielbasa, and baked beans. All on the same plate. it was
  multicultural!

  But anyways, i haven’t really been out of the house in nine or ten days, and have mostly been immobilized on the chaise in the livingroom. If you’re going to be sick, it’s pretty nice having a chaise. it’s tucked into the big bay window in the front room, so when i look up I see the sky and the branches of the big tree in our yard. The breeze comes up the hill and blows through the house when the windows are open, so it’s almost like being outside. I wanted to be for-real outside, though. So i laid there all week with my laptop, and geeked out, and watched the tree. Since i couldn’t do much else.

  I got the bulk of the new website built on Shopify, which pretty much rocks. No content yet, just the bare bones. I spent last week reading tutorials on Java and CSS, and figured out how to hack the code of my page to make it look how i want. I was kinda pleased with myself. I learned some new things.

  

  By Monday i was desperately bored with programming, so I checked to see if i could get into my old account on this online game called Kingdom of Loathing.  Xangans who have been around a while will recall that i was waaay into this dork-mecca a few years back, and i used to make KoL- themed artwork. My favorite part was the community which thrived around the game, and I made a lot of friends which I stay in touch with even now. Well, my account was still there, and i found a couple of old friends, too. I’ve been missed around the place, apparently, and even some of the newer players had heard of me. Huh. I’ve also started working on some new art for the game. It’s interesting for me to see how my style and skills have developed between then and now, and how much I have mellowed the fuck out, too.

  

  

  I also talked to an old friend from the game, who ended up being a real-life friend at the time, somebody who was a really bright spot for me, and then the whole relationship went to utter hell. That’s about when i quit playing. I tried to talk to him about it a a year or so ago, and he pretty much bitched me out like a rabid pit bull, which i completely deserved, but it still sucked. I’ve always felt really terrible about the whole thing, and I’ve missed talking to him. He was online yesterday, and we cleared a bunch of things up. Everything is okay now, and everything is forgiven. I know it’s just a stupid dorky game- i feel sorta Kip Dynamitesque talking about it, because the internets r seriose bizniss! – but whatever. It’s like this immense weight has been lifted, and I am so happy to have my old friend back.

  So yeah. i’m all betterer now, and i can go make some more beads today. And I did get a lot done, whoopie!

     

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