May 18, 2003
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The reason I love Jared the way that i do is because he gave me the word I needed for my new definition. Yesterday we had lunch and walked around the park and counted the days that had come between us, and talked about some philosophy to back up the things that we wanted to do. Agency, he calls it. So now I’m thinking about agency and prophecy….the tangible actions I can take are stirring up the undercurrents and omens that move my life. I have no fricking clue what is going to happen…..
…..This morning I found myself in the sunshine in Somerville, sliding on some more lip gloss, adjusting the bass in my headphones (more!), and preparing to either flee or stand and face the state I’d put myself in. I am feeling a little terrible, but very agenty. Happy and powerful, even. I can decide what is going to happen…..
Is he still coming? What does that mean? What will I do?
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this was a good day for a walk in somerville. i myself went for a walk in the neighboring city of cambridge. i love it when they shut down memorial drive on sundays. i walk across and down brattle and then over to the river. the sun was so golden today, everything was illuminated. it made me smile.