October 4, 2003
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Ass Mart
It was raining today, so I spent most of the morning holed up in my house, digging through the clothes-pile monster and lamenting the lack of milk for my cereal. I was feeling pretty half assed and bored and lonely by one o’clock, so I decided to get gussied up and see about some lunch. So despite all the drizzle, I hopped on the bus and headed for the fens.
Sometimes I have solitary days where I just wander around and hang out with myself, and I noticed that I haven’t done that very much lately. When I was pseudo-single this past spring I walked around alot at night with my headphones on, or drew in my sketchbook, or took myself out to brunch and read books in the park. I didn’t really talk to anyone, just wandered around with my own thoughts happening in my head. I miss that sometimes.
So i got off the bus and tramped across the park, and got my sneakers wet chasing a terrified flock of sparrows across the grass. It felt really good to be silly and mischievious for no reason.
I met Bry and we had food, and then i followed him to school, to the studios where i used to spend all my days. I sat on the windowsill ten stories up and watched the city like i once did, and daydreamed about how strange it was to be here again years later, and everything that is the same, and everything that is different now.
